Medium Stephen Wakeling Answers Your Questions

Am I something more than me
Date: 6 June 2013

Dear Mr. Wakeling,

When I was a child, and I'm 50 years old now, I was a thinker... Meaning that I did not have the best childhood so I stayed in my mind quite a bit. First of all during all my ponderings as a little girl I would think and think about what does this world mean. I was extremely inquisitive as to what was I on this earth and what basically was "the deal". I don't know if I would almost be in a state of meditation or not but I remember feeling "Oh, that's what it is...how simple... I have it figured out." Then poof! It would be gone. I could never retain my grasp of knowledge. Almost as if "No, you are not supposed to know that." I felt like my brain was open to understanding this complex world we live in but could never hold that knowledge. This happened quite frequently to me.

Once as a child I am quite certain that I was touched by an apparition of some type. I was lying in bed trying to fall asleep and I felt something run it's hand down my back. My older sister was asleep beside me. I was very startled but no one was there. I might point out that again, as a child, I was plagued by a recurring nightmare wherein I was absolutely terrified almost frozen with terror and I would wake and retain that terror but for the life of me I never ever was able to tell you what that recurring dream was. I dreamed that dream until I was in my 20's.

Also, as a child I also had an extreme de ja vu. Was absolutely certain of seeing that swing under that tree in front of that house in the past. I was somewhat frightened by that experience, especially since my mother insisted that I had never ever been there.

When I was 13 years old I had emergency appendectomy and awoke post-op in a sedated state of mind I awoke to my mother and step-mother standing over me and my mother looked to the side and I glanced over and saw a male nurse standing there and told my mother without a moments hesitation "he's my guardian angel, don't mind him." I never saw that man again and neither did my mother. Also (sorry this is so long and rambling) I don't know if it means I am an intuitive or not but I do have a bad problem with feeling others pain. Not like if I see a man in a car wreck I feel his injuries but I hurt inside for them.

I feel like when I was a child my mind was much more receptive to these types of things and that as I get older I am less likely ever figure it out. I've always felt as if I have just a little psychic ability. For instance I was driving down the road and I slammed on the brakes just milliseconds before the wheel came flying off a car I was meeting. Numerous occasions where I felt I must have an angel watching over me because I should be dead. Feelings of foreboding also.

I feel like there's something I need to learn, something I need to try to develop but I don't know how to do that and I would love it if you would give me your opinion on what may be going on in my head. Oh yeah, I've always been certain of the fact that I'm special...different...something meant for me to be/do.... I am a registered nurse and have always been the caregiver in the family. Please help me figure this out because there could be something very important I need to be doing.

Thank you so much for your time and consideration.