Medium Stephen Wakeling Answers Your Questions
Date: 1 November 2012
Hi I am sending this to you in search of answers and healing after I had to make the nightmare decision to put my beautiful dog down due to old age and pain.
It has been a month since his passing and it feels like an eternity since I held him. I miss him so much I don't know if I will ever be able to get over it.
He came to me at a time in my life I was at my lowest, and made me feel whole again.
I was there for his birth, helped him take his first breath. He stayed by my side as my rock for 12 yrs. He and I went through so much together, and no matter what happened he was always there. When I had to make the decision to have him put down I put all my feeling aside to be there for him no matter how hard it was going to be to see it. I never for one minute wanted him to think I abandoned him.
When I close my eyes I can still see him laying on the floor of the vets office motionless. I can still hear in my head the last breath he took. It is a nightmare I don't know if I can or will ever get over.
The other night my family and I were sitting in our living room watching tv when we heard the door bell ring, but it was at our back door. No one ever uses that door to come here. My boyfriend went out to see who it was, and no one was there. The gate was still the same way it had been all day, and no signs of anyone being there.
The next thing I know my son who is 3 yrs old asks me where Buddy is (my dogs name) and I said Stephan he is gone. He looks at me and says no mommy he isn't. I looked at him and said yes he is gone, he insisted that he wasn't and said he was outside.
I thought it to be very strange that he would mention him since he hadn't done so for a couple weeks.
I have a picture on my wall of my Buddy and I looked up at it, things started to dawn on me.
At the time of the door bell ringing (715pm) it was the time almost exactly to the time Buddy took his last breath, it also was the time my boyfriend would take him out each night for his last time out.
It also dawned on me that it was exactly one month since he had been put down.
Is there or could there be any connections here?
I am not a total believer in the spirit stuff I guess because I have never experienced anything that would make me believe it, but I spoke to my sister who is a believer in spirits and things beyond death, and she said to me that it is possible that Buddy had come and stayed a while to make sure we were ok. The door bell ringing and all could have been a sign that he was saying his good byes and going into the light comfortable knowing that we were ok now.
I want to believe that he has been here, and I wish I knew that my baby was ok now.
I wish I could hug him again or at least see him and tell him how much I miss him. My heart is broken since his passing.
I wish I knew that he was here in spirit and that he will always be here with me. I always felt safe with him no matter what or where I was.
Please help me to understand the spirit world and if it is possible he has been or is here with me.
Thank you so much.
Messages In This Thread
- My dog -- Jennifer -- 1 November 2012
- Re: My dog -- Stephen Wakeling -- 7 November 2012